I had been using crack for a while, continually keeping a hit ready when I felt the urge to smoke. Even though I was using it every day at this point, I had never done
I had been using crack for a while, continually keeping a hit ready when I felt the urge to smoke. Even though I was using it every day at this point, I had never done enough to consider it a binge. I remember the night everything changed so clearly – I was sitting in the home I shared with several others, waiting for my next hit.
I had gotten a pretty generous tip from playing that day, and I was excited to spend it on my drug of choice. Everyone used in the house, so it was only a matter of waiting for it to arrive. I had enough money to get more than I usually got, but the others suggested we put some money together and get a more significant amount that we could all use. It sounded perfect – I’d be getting more for my money, and we could all have a good time. I agreed, and a couple of hours later the party began.
We got as much as we could and smoked all night. The next day we continued until it ran out, and soon I was trying to get more. I wouldn’t be lucky enough to get the same amount of money I got busking last time, so I went to more extreme measures to get my fix – stealing. After I had pawned a few things, narrowly escaping getting rid of my guitar, I was back in business. This time I didn’t share, instead of smoking it all myself.
At this point, I had heard my friends say the word ‘geeking’ a couple of times, but I had no clue what it meant. I asked for an explanation of the word, and soon after found out what it meant I was in the hospital staring at my parent’s concerned faces.
What is Geeking?
When it comes to crack, and cocaine use, geeking is used to describe excessive use of the drug – going on a binge. Users will ingest more and more of the drug over a short period and increase the dose to keep their high. Individuals will commit crimes and go to extreme measures to raise money and buy more of the drug, even prostituting themselves.
When someone describes another as ‘geeking’, they are referring to some of the symptoms of cocaine use, including paranoid psychosis. Paranoid psychosis can cause addicts to become out of touch with reality. Users may become obsessed or feel as though they are being watched or followed.
The clinical term for geeking is defined as ingesting crack or cocaine until you are incapable of using any more. Most users will end their binge due to a lack of money or becoming too sick or fatigued to continue use of the drug.
After my binge, I had to face what my addiction had become. I was lying in a hospital bed feeling sicker than I had ever felt and guilty for making my parents worry so much about me. You don’t have to wait until you are on a hospital bed – confront your addiction and seek personal help if you or a loved one shows signs of substance abuse.